Songs of the Heart

[[ pretend I'm burning bright ]]

2008-03-23T20:30:25Z

Appearance

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles

Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from a job like pens and trivial things
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. In the past, not the present
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
[x] My answers are totally honest

[[ in my pants, yeah? ]]

2008-03-23T20:15:40Z

1.) Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2.) List the first fifteen songs that come up (skipping titles like "Fugue in D Minor") and add "in my pants" to the end.
3.) Bold the ones that actually made you LOL.

* Thnks Fr Th Mmrs in my pants

* The Ghost of You in my pants

* No One in my pants

* Heaven is a Place on Earth in my pants

* Take This To Heart in my pants

* London Bridge in my pants

* Pictures of You in my pants

* Romance in my pants

* Bossy in my pants

* Smother Me in my pants

* Call Me When You're Sober in my pants

* Call On Me in my pants

* Glamorous in my pants

* Night Fever in my pants

* Martin Sheen or JFK in my pants

[[ have you got a name, lady? ]]

2008-03-23T20:08:28Z

[[ all answers are done with random iTunes shuffle ]]
top friends
1. Sophie
2. Hanna
3. Ally
4. Lizzy
5. Ilona
6. Justin
7. Julius
8. Hannah S.
9. Katherine
10. Lucy
11. Sheva
12. Emma J.

answer with song titles
what do you call 9 behind their back? Kiss My Sass
what do you think of 7's life? Rain On Me
if you could give 6 a nickname what would it be? E-Pro
what is 2's life going to be like? Bliss
what will 3's spouse be like? Fly
what will 1's kids be like? Lazy Eye
what kind of job will 4 have? Dance With Me
what does 8 think of school? Rockers to Swallow
what do you think of 12 right now? I Don't Know About You, But I Came to Dance
what do you think of 9's parents? Buttons
what do you like most about 7? Thank You for the Venom
what would 8 say about this survey? What Is Love
how do you feel about dating 5? Our Lips Are Sealed
4 just killed someone, what did they tell you? The Other Side Of the Crash/Over and Out (of Control)
why do you keep 1 as your friend? Affliction
what is 11 whispering in your ear? Show Me Love
do you love 2? Oxygen
what would you say to 12 right now? Itazurana Kiss
if 10 asked you to marry them what would you say? Take Me Away
if 11 was at your door crying what would you say? Fanfare
why is 11 at your door crying anyway? She Will Love You
if 5 disappeared what would you say? Invisible
how much do you care about 6? And Then We Kiss

answer with the first line of the song
what do you think of the person you like? Conversations with my thirteen year old self...
what did you say when you were drunk? Get a load of me, get a load of you...
what did you say when you were sad? Come back to me, this is unconceivable...
what caused the happiest moment of your life? This is a seasonal affair...
what made you angry? By now you should know everything you say...
what do you have to say to the person you miss? Me and all my friends, we're all misunderstood...
what would you like to change about yourself? I never dreamed it'd be this way...
what is your weakness? Die, die, die my darling...
if you could do anything right now what would you do? My life reads like the classifieds...
what do you have to say for yourself? The trouble with schools is they always try to teach the wrong lesson...

answer with the last line of the song
what was your last mistake? You and I are really running out of time...
how do you feel about religion? I'll never join your side...
how do you feel today? I only need what I don't want...
what happens in your favorite movie? They'll be spitting in your eye...
what do you look for in the opposite gender? Is this real?
what do you wanna do tonight? So sexy we are, we just don't know it...
is there anything bothering you right now? All the promises that we made...
what if someone called you stupid? Or maybe it's just mine...
where are you? Just tonight, okay...

[[ everybody bleeds ]]

2008-03-23T19:48:38Z

Did you date anyone this past summer?
    Nope.

Who was the last friend in your house?
    Evelyn, I think. In like, 6th grade. Ages ago, much?

How's your ex doing?
    Dunno. He moved to California. I haven't heard from him in years.

Is there someone you want to fight?
    Not really.

What color shirt were you wearing when your last kiss took place?
    Haha, like I remember.

Song playing right now?
    Emotional by Diana DeGarmo.

Does anyone like you?
    Maybe. Who knows?

What are you thinking about right now?
    I'm wondering if anybody does like me.

What’s your middle name?
    Shazi. ^^

What were you doing an hour ago?
    Hmm...trying to uninstall Internet Explorer and surfing movie channels, methinks.

What does your last text message in your inbox say?
    So not checking that.

Do you secretly like someone?
    I might. It's a very great possibility.

Where were you Friday night?
    At home, watching movies.

Do you wear the seatbelt in the car?
    Yep. Because people usually tell me to.

Has anyone ever mistaken you for someone else?
    Um, I don't think so.

Next vacation you're going on?
    I don't go on vacations.

Do you have any piercings?
    Typical ears. >< I'm hoping to get more.

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
    A kiss. Sex maybe? A relationship?

Do you like to text or call more?
   Text. I hate calling people.

What's the closest blue object to you?
    The little screw in my iPod case.

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
    Um, eventually, maybe. Like, a few months or a year after? Who knows?

Is there anyone you hate?
    Yeah. Not that many people though.

Are you single?
    Yes. Yes. Yesssss.

Do you like the color orange?
    Yeah, actually.

Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
    Oh god, so very much.

Where was your last long road trip to?
    Vermont.

Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?
    Um, not really.

Who is your favorite person to kiss?
    Jeez, I've only kissed like, two people. And those were ages ago. So, no favorite, sadly.

How many times have you kissed that person?
    See above, much?

Would you kiss them again?
    ><

What is the weather like today?
    Um, sunny. Kinda chilly. Usual early spring New York weather.

Worst job you have ever had?
    Never had one.

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
    Okay, sober. Never been drunk.

Why did your last relationship end?
    Cause he moved to California.

Do you talk to your most recent ex, or crush more?
    Crush, because EX IS IN CALIFORNIA, MAYBE.

Who did you last talk to on the phone for over 20 minutes?
    ...Sophie, maybe? Or maybe Katherine.

Where will you be in an hour?
    Same place I am now.

"The Take Over, the Breaks Over"

2008-03-23T19:22:12Z

Hehe, it's been a while, hasn't it? While I've been posting away on my other journal nonstop, I've totally abandoned this one. Well, anywho...it's SURVEY TIMEEEE.

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don't make sense. You'll be surprised though.

How am I feeling today?
Everything We Had -- The Academy Is...

Will I get far in life?
Carry On -- Burn Season

How do my friends see me?
Shady Business -- The Audition

Where will I get married?
Fuk and the Finga -- Dane Cook

What is my best friend's theme song?
The Boy Is Mine -- Brandy & Monica

What is the story of my life?
Earthquake -- The Used

What was high school like?
On My Own -- Three Days Grace

How can I get ahead in life?
Love Will Tear Us Apart -- Fall Out Boy

What is the best thing about me?
The Mirror-Blue Night -- Spring Awakening

What was today like?
At This Velocity -- Thursday

What is in store for this weekend?
Let It Die -- Three Days Grace

What song describes my parents?
Almost Easy -- Avenged Sevenfold

How is my life going?
Walking -- October Fall

What song will they play at my funeral?
Love Hurts -- Incubus

How does the world see me?
Stronger -- Britney Spears

Will I have a happy life?
Sympathy -- Billy Talent

What do my friends really think of me?
The Church of Hot Addiction -- Cobra Starship

Do people secretly lust after me?
I'm Still In Love With You -- Sean Paul

How can I make myself happy?
Emergency -- Paramore

What should I do with my life?
Everything I'm Not -- The Veronicas

What will my children be like?
Beautiful Day -- Mellowdrone

What will you name them?
Fergalicious -- Fergie

What will the person you marry be like?
I'll Cover You (Reprise) -- RENT

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
L.O.V.E. -- Ashlee Simpson

Will you have a fulfilling life?
Who We Are -- Hope Partlow

What will you title this post?
"The Take Over, the Breaks Over" -- Fall Out Boy

Metaphorical Lies

2007-06-03T19:50:43Z

My friend introduced me to a new way to come up with lines or just metaphors. Just relax and think of random words and write them in the order they came to you in. They usually form sentences anyways.

One-liners hitting the bottom of the ocean and sinking in the sea of despair.

Cries of children that won't be heard by deaf mothers.

Love lost across oceans too wide for our weak hearts.

Translucent images popping into my head and leave strange messages behind.

The curse of curves which allows me to express all my sins.

I never said they had to make sense.

The irony of the web of lies you've made.

Give me a helping hand for I surely need one.

Captains sail on oceans that will never touch the shore.

Endless battles with aching hearts and emo poetry.

What makes you what you are; your black heart or your empty mind?

Do my lyrics make you nervous and do the words tingle down your spine?

Journal (Doesn't Make Me Happy)

2007-05-15T23:52:37Z

New song time! This one's based on what a friend said to me today and how I'm feeling.

Journal (Doesn't Make Me Happy)

So I got a journal, filled the pages up with tears
The sadness in my soul has all been released here
Let go of my problems and let them flow out free
Hope they stick to the paper and don't come back to me

The pen's almost out of ink; I bought it yesterday
It matched the blue on the cover of my diary
But the ink was still black, dark and tainted like my soul
Which you can now see on the paper, where my story's been told

So I got a journal, doesn't make me happy
Doesn't mean I'll write about joy and laughter
Doesn't mean I'm overall content and satisfied
I got a journal, doesn't mean that I won't cry

Perceptions that people have of me go in the margin
Along with all the things I've wanted to say to you
True confessions, get the truth behind the lies I tell
And maybe you'll get to know me afterwards

My outer shell is hard but disappears when the book is opened
I only let these tattered pages see the real me, don't I?
Because if I let you see who I really am
You'd leave me farther behind than you already do

So I got a journal, doesn't make me happy
Doesn't mean I'll write about joy and laughter
Doesn't mean I'm overall content and satisfied
I got a journal, doesn't mean that I won't cry

I bought this so I could release my fury (my fury)
Let go of all these demons inside me (inside me)
So you'd see all the stories I've yet to tell (yet to tell)
You may think that I'm all better now.
Well...

So I got a journal, doesn't make me happy
Doesn't mean I'll write about joy and laughter
Doesn't mean I'm overall content and satisfied
I got a journal, doesn't mean that I won't cry

I could fill the pages up forever (but it won't...)
I could fill the pages up forever (but it won't...)
I could fill the pages up forever
But it'll never take away the pain...

Hey Miss Murder...

2007-05-15T23:40:56Z

Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you're wearing? -- Hot Topic
How many bathrooms are in your house? -- One
Can you throw a football? -- Yeah
Does anyone in you family have tourettes? -- Um, no.
What time is it? -- 7:38 PM
Do you like the smell of vanilla? -- Yeah
What's the closest thing to you that's orange? A haphazardly thrown shirt on my bed.
What's your favorite sport? ...Don't have one.
Who is jealous of you? Someone, I'm sure.
Do you like nail polish? Yeah.
Do you know anyone named Earl? Nope.
What about Alyssa? Yeah.
Or Tony? Nope.
Dunkin Donuts or Krispy Kreme? Krispy Kreme.
Save the forest or save the whales? The forest.
How many lamps are in the room you're in? Two.
What kind of shoes do you have? Skechers.
Do you consider yourself lucky? Sometimes.
Have you ever had a crush on one of your best friends? Yeah.
Do you live in a house or apartment? Apartment.
Do you know both your parents? Yeah.
Who always says your name wrong? Ugh, many new people.
Can you tell when people are lying? Sometimes.
Can you play golf? No.
Whats your thoughts on gay couples? GOOD FOR THEM. If only we could all find somebody to love.
Is bush a good president? No.
Who sits behind you in social studies? Nobody. We don't sit in rows. And we don't call it social studies anymore.
Who sits next to you in social studies? Lucy on the right. Katherine on the left.
Have you ever put a lot of thinking into killing yourself? Yeah.
Which superhero do you want to be? Catwoman. Or is she considered a villain? Whatever...
What are three of your favorite movies? ...Finding Nemo, Dreamgirls, and one of the Harry Potter movies.
Do you want to go to college? Hells yeah.
Is anyone in your family a chef? Nope. But we're pretty good at cooking.
Do you own a dog? Nope. Never will.
Which is better.. Duracell or Energizer? Duracell.
What's your favorite kind of weather? 60-75 degrees. Sunny. No clouds. Cool breeze.

Feeling quite tragic...

2007-05-15T23:34:02Z

[10 things in your room]
01. my iPods
02. my cell phone
03. my computer
04. my bags
05. my purse
06. my book collection
07. my poetry
08. my TV
09. my radio
10. my alarm clock

[9 things you love]
01. music
02. fanfiction
03. my friends
04. my dad
05. letters
06. roses
07. coffins
08. cemeteries
09. cremation

[8 songs you love]
01. Red Flag -- Billy Talent
02. The Pros and Cons of Breathing -- Fall Out Boy
03. I Never Told You What I Do for a Living -- My Chemical Romance
04. Say This Sooner -- The Almost
05. Girl's Not Grey -- AFI
06. And All Things Will End -- Avenged Sevenfold
07. Dance Hall Drug -- Boys Like Girls
08. All the Rage -- Funeral for a Friend

[7 characteristics you like about the other gender]
01. physical attractiveness
02. ability to lose weight
03. emotional detachment
04. sense of humor
05. eyes
06. hair
07. pervertedness

[6 things that annoy you]
01. spammers
02. boring people
03. clingy people
04. overemotional people
05. overdramatic people
06. silence

[5 things you're wearing]
01. my Fall Out Boy shirt
02. my jeans
03. my socks
04. a purple scrunchie (on my wrist)
05. a black scrunchie (in my hair)

[4 of your nicknames]
01. Shazzles
02. Shaz
03. Shaz-a-Fraz
04. Shaziru

[3 words to describe you]
01. sarcastic
02. cynical
03. funny

[2 clothes brands you wear]
01. don't wear
02. brands

[1 thing you can't live without]
01. my life. duh.

I like 'em pricey...

2007-05-15T23:20:59Z

1. My name is::: Shazi.
2. I may seem::: Nice.
3. But I'm really::: a bitch.
4. People who know me think::: I'm funny.
5. If you knew me you'd::: think that too.
6. Sometimes I feel::: alone.
7. In the morning I::: don't feel like waking up.
8. I like to sleep::: all the time.
9. If I could be doing anything right now I would be::: writing, but I'm currently having writer's block.
10. Money is::: problematic.
11. One thing I wish I had is::: love.
12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't is::: my problems.
13. All you need is::: a death wish.
14. All I need is::: sex.
15. If I had one wish it would be::: for my dreams to become a reality.
16. Love is::: meh.
17. My body is::: hot. xD
18. If an angel flew into my window at night I would::: hope he's damn sexy.
19. If a demon crashed into my window I would::: laugh.
20. If I could see one person right now it would be::: ugh, I can't choose.
21. Something I want but I don't really need is::: a laptop. But I DO need it...
22. Something I need but I don't really want is::: a new attitude towards life.
23. I live for::: music.
24. I dare you all to::: take on my perspective of life. Yeah. That's what I thought.
25. I am afraid of::: not knowing what I'm afraid of.
26. It makes me angry when::: people are unnecessary.
29. I cry because::: I don't cry.
30. This survey is::: depressing? therapeutic?

Your strums couldn't mean less...

2007-05-15T23:08:14Z

1. I love-- my friends.
2. Right now, I want-- ice cream. Food.
3. I feel like-- crap.
4. I hate it when-- I feel like crap.
5. I fear-- nothing.
6. I'm lonely without-- music.
7. I need-- a new attitude.
8. Today I-- felt like crap.
9. Tomorrow I'm-- going to feel like crap.
10. I just-- finished listening to a song.
11. I want to meet-- Frank Iero.
12. I'm hungry for-- mashed potatoes.
13. I love it when-- I dance.
14. I'm afraid of-- the first thing that popped into my head.
15. I'm listening to-- Moan by Cute Is What We Aim For.
16. I'm wearing-- my new Fall Out Boy shirt and jeans. And cool socks.
17. I wish I was in-- Minnesota.
18. I'm craving-- McDonald's.
19. I want to get-- away.
20. I can-- fly.
21. I can't-- fly.
22. I have-- a nasty cough.
23. I hadn't-- known how to answer this one.
24. I'm nervous to-- ...?
25. My Mom thinks I'm-- cynical. She's right.
26. My Dad thinks I'm-- perfect. He's wrong.
27. I think-- I'm nothing.
28. I'm happy when-- I'm happy.
29. I'm sad when-- I come home.
30. I like eating-- chicken.
31. I hate eating-- brussel sprouts.
32. I love watching-- TV.
33. I love listening to-- music.
34. I like playing-- piano.
35. I hate waking up to-- my alarm clock.
36. I can see-- clearly now the rain is gone.
37. I'm glad that-- it's almost over.
38. I'm disappointed that-- I'm such a disappointment.
39. I look like-- crap.
40. I wish I looked like-- me.

From the van to the floor...

2007-05-15T23:06:11Z

RED = ANGER
Nearest red thing to you: A die.
1. Are you currently mad at someone? No.
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? Hard to tell. We all get pretty damn angry.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Yes.
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? Not noticeably so, but yes.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? Both.

ORANGE = EXCITEMENT
Nearest orange thing to you: A book.
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? No.
2. Are you easily excited? Um, not really.
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about? 8th Grade Trip.
4. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought? Put half of it in the bank.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? A laptop.

YELLOW = SELF DISCOVERY
Nearest yellow thing to you: An envelope.
1. Name: Shazi
2. Birthday: August 29
3. What's your main goal in life? To have fun, I guess.
4. Do you want to have children? Sure. Why not?
5. When do you want to die? Sometime before I'm 75, really. I don't want to die of old age.

GREEN = OPINIONS
Nearest green thing to you: My pig keychain.
1. Are you against gay marriage? No. I'm very much for it.
2. Against lowering the drinking age? Yeah, I guess.
3. Against Capital Punishment? Yeah.
4. Against abortion? No.

BLUE = LOVE
Closest blue thing to you: My notebook.
1. Do you love someone? My friends, yeah.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? No. I believe in LUST at first sight, however.

PURPLE = Q&A
Closest purple thing to you: Another keychain.
Q: How many beds did you lay in today? One.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing? Gray.
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday? Eat.
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now? Dunno. More than three dollars.
Q: Look to your left: Sailor Moon posters, the walls, the shadow of my computer chair.
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? Um...I don't really borrow clothes.
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? Fanfiction websites.
Q: Do you have plants in your room? No. If I do, they're dead.
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now? No, not really.
Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in? New York.
Q: Do you own a picture phone? No. ;_;
Q: Recent time you were really upset? Earlier today, yesterday.

PINK = LAST
Nearest pink thing to you: Post-its.
1. Person you saw: My mom.
2. Time you cried: A couple of weeks ago. Maybe last month.
3. Movie watched in cinema: YOU HONESTLY EXPECT ME TO REMEMBER? Oh wait, it was Dreamgirls.
4. Song you listened to: To The End -- My Chemical Romance. It just ended.
5. Person you talked on the phone with: Katherine.
6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone? But it's not.

GREY = TODAY
Nearest gray thing to you: My shirt.
1. What are you doing right now? Typing, der.
2. What are you doing tonight? Homework, maybe.
3. What are you going to eat? Dunno.

BROWN = TOMORROW
Nearest brown thing to you: My skin. xD
1. Is: going to be like every other day.
2. Goal: don't have one.
3. Are you going to laugh? I always laugh.

Random Title Time!

2007-05-15T22:55:35Z

01. What is one thing you fear? YOUR MOM. OH.
02. Have you ever been to Neopets.com? Yes. Oh dear...
03. Do you have a MySpace? Yeah
04. Do you think MySpaces are pointless? Now, kinda...
05. Have you ever been arrested? Nope.
06. Do you know what the color chartreuse looks like? Yeah, but I've always been confused on whether it's purple or green. >.<
07. Do you have a pet cat? Used to.
08. Which is worse: George Bush or Bill Clinton? George Bush.
09. Have you seen all of the Star Wars movies? Yep.
10. Have you ever won any contests? Um...I think...
11. What's your favorite NFL team? Jets, probably. Or the Colts. Or the Dolphins.
12. Have you ever done any drugs? Nopeeeeee.
13. Ever been to Mexico? Nope.
14. Do you think Shakespeare is interesting? Yeah, but I HATE Romeo and Juliet.
15. Where was your mom born? Antigua.
16. What's your second best friend's middle name? Rose? I think.
17. Have you ever met anyone who actually likes pop up ads? Hehe, no.
18. What's your favorite pizza place? Um...that one that's near where I used to live...NO. NEVER MIND. It's Not Ray's Pizza. Oh, I love their pizza!
19. Has your favorite NHL team ever won the Stanley Cup? I. Hate. Hockey.
20. Would you ever go on Fear Factor? Hell yeah.
21. What's your favorite pie flavor? Cherry? Or that chocolate one.
22. What kind of printer do you have? HP Photosmart 7260
23. Have you ever held a Fender Telecaster in your hands? Nope. I'd like to. Got one to spare?
24. Do you have a pet hermit crab? No, lol.
25. What's the fourth digit in your phone number? My cell or home phone? SPECIFY.
26. Which do you prefer: freezing cold or hot and humid? Hot and humid.
27. Do you currently have a crush on someone you can't have? Used to. But it's ALWAYS that way.
28. What perfume/cologne do you wear? This vanilla scented one that actually smells like marshmallows, and this cotton and vanilla one and this cucumber one.
29. Have you ever watched Dora the Explorer in spanish? xD No.
30. Have you ever read Lord of the Flies? Yes. Damn pig-rapers.
31. Did you actually like it? Yes.
32. What was your favorite cartoon when you were 10? ...Spongebob? Or the Fairly OddParents.Still is, really...
33. How many different email addresses have you had? Like...seven.
34. What's your lucky number? 3, 7, or 13.

I'm Not Your Lover...

2007-05-15T22:46:09Z

#1- Lizzy
#2- Katherine
#3- Lucy
#4- Anna
#5- Hannah S.
#6- Hanna
#7- Ally
#8- Sophie
#9- Ilona
#10- Justin
#11- Julius
#12- Rachel
#13- Anna
#14- Hannah Y.
#15- Olivia
#16- Bronagh
#17- Emma
#18- Evelyn
#19- Fatima
#20- Zola
#21- Celia
#22- Kira
#23- Kirsten
#24- Alison
#25- Sheva
#26- Kylie
#27- Kayla
#28- Zoe
#29- Laramie
#30- Laura

Is 1 your best friend? Yep. ^_^ One of them, anyways.
Do you have a crush on 15? Ha ha, no. That'd be weird.
What is your best memory with 7? AIM chats. Or the time she gave me Oreos. Yep. Good times.
Is 26 attractive? Yep, if I may say so myself.
Would you hook up with 10? Um. No.
Has 14 ever been to your house? No.
Would 2 and 29 make a good couple? Ha, no.
Would 17 and 19 make a good couple? Nope. Nope. Nope.
Would 4 and 30 make a good couple? AH HA. Definitely not.
Is 3 someone you would trust with your life? Yes.
Do you agree with 12 on political issues? We don't really discuss political issues, but I guess so.
How long have you known 25? Almost...a year and a half, methinks. Or about a year...
What is unique about 20? What ISN'T unique about her?
Is 16 a very tall person? Not very tall, but taller than me. Then again, who isn't?
Are 4 and 6 friends? Somewhat, I think.
Are 8 and 23 friends? No, I don't think they know each other.
Is 2 a member of your family? Nope.
Does 21 have good taste in music? Yeah, I guess.
Does 11 have a myspace? I don't think so.
Are you romantically involved with 5? Ha ha, no.
Are 3 and 19 enemies? They don't even know each other.
Have you ever traveled with 9? Nope. Unless you count the Beach Day school buses and school trips and whatnot.
Do you have any classes with 24? Nope.
Have you ever been out to eat with 18? Yeah. Good times...
What is your favorite thing about 6? Her eyes? xD YES HANNA, YOU HAVE NICE EYES.
What is your biggest problem with 1? I don't have any problems with her anymore.
Have you ever had sex with 10? NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. EWWWWWWWWWW.
Have you ever slept in the same bed as 18? Hmm...I don't think so. Maybe when we were younger...
If you were stranded on an island with 22, what would you do? ...Next question.
Do you listen to advice from 21? Sometimes.
Would you live with 3? Yes!
Would you trust 15 to plan your wedding? Hell yeah, and it'd be the hottest wedding ever!
Describe 1 in three adjectives: Tall, blond, funny.
Describe 2 in three adjectives: Weird, tall, strange.
Describe 3 in three adjectives: Drama queen, lovely.
Does 29 live in your county? No. She's in another state entirely.
Does 30 have any brothers or sisters? I don't remember, but probably not.
Would you sacrifice anything to save 17 from certain death? Probably.
Is there anything you hate about 8? Yes.
What is 13's favorite food? I haven't the slightest idea.
Have you known 6 since elementary school? Nope.
If a movie was made about 12 what would it be called? Perceptions.
If a book were written about 14 what would it be called? 10 Things We All Hate About You.
What color are 20's eyes? Brown.
Is 25 a very short person? Ha, yeah. Only person shorter than me on this list, methinks.
What is an oddity about 19? She defines odd.
hat is 5's favorite animal? Dunno.
Have you ever gotten drunk with 26? Ha, no. But wouldn't THAT be fun.
Have you ever invited 29 to a party? No.
Would you trust 1 with any secret? Basically, yeah.
Will 22 probably fill this same survey out? Maybe if she's bored.
Do you like 16's hair? Um, yeah, I guess...
Is 2 younger or older than you? Older. By a couple of months, so neener to you.
Which friend is quietest? 20, probably.
Which friend is loudest? Oh, I'm not on this list...but 19 most likely.
Which friend do you trust the most? 1-3
Are there any friends on the list that you don't trust? Not. Really.
Which friend is the best actor/actress? Erm, three methinks.
Which friend is most likely to be successful? 15 - girl's got it good.
Which friend is the most gangsta? 15, hehe.
Which friend gets the best grades? 2, probably. Damn your overachieveringness.
Which friend is the most intelligent? OKAY, THAT'S HARD. They're all soooooo smart...
Which friend is the best singer? 3 or 15. And me. We're all so damn good and you know it...
Which friend is the best rapper? xD 26. Have you HEARD this girl do freestyle?
Which friend do you like riding in the car with the most? 1. Definitely.
Which friend do you want to travel the world with? 1, ha, that'd be fun. Or maybe 2...
Which friend would you trust the most to buy your wardrobe? 15. I don't know why. Or 19. Yeah...19.
Which friend are you most likely to end up marrying? xD None!
Which friend is most like to have a nervous breakdown? 3.
Which friend is the most brutally honest? ...29. Most. Definitely.
Which friend is the biggest gossiper? 1? Well, she used to be...
Which friend jokes the most on other people? -shrugs- We all do, really...but probably 29, hehe. She's good at it.
Which friend is the most religious? None, really...

F is for friends who do stuff together...

2007-05-15T22:22:54Z

A- Anna
P- Can't recall.
L- Lisa
C- Can't recall.
N- Nikki
E- Evelyn
B- Bronagh
D- Dana
K- Katherine
M- Morgan

how long have you know M? Only knew her for like, a year...
where/how did you meet P? Don't know anybody with a P.
have you ever done anything illegal with C? Don't know anybody with a C.
is L in a relationship? I don't know - don't care.
why is B your friend? Because...I don't know. We see each other a lot?
would N and P make a good couple? xD Oh yes, Nikki and invisible person would make a GREAT couple.
what is the best memory you have with D? All those Prep times. Man, those were fun..but that Mets game stands out to me.
what is the worst memory you have with K? Oddly enough, can't really say I've had any bad times with Katherine. =P
is A a good person? YES.
do you dance with E? Oh, this one time we did the mambo, the cha-cha, and the salsa. And the next day we couldn't remember how to do any of them!
are L and P good friends? I'm sure Lisa has an imaginary friend, if that's what you're asking.
does M cook? I don't know.
do A, B, C, D, or E know who you like? Well, I don't like anyone, so it'd be preeeety hard for them to know.
is K trustworthy? Yeah.
where does A live? STALKER. I'm not telling you! I don't even know myself...
have you ever hugged N? Yes. Many times.

J- Johnathan
O- Olivia
Z- Zaida
W- Whitney
F- Fatima
I- Izzy
T- Can't recall.
S- Sheva

are J and O friends? Um. They don't even know each other.
do you hate F? No.
do T, I, and Z make you laugh? Izzy and Zaida are pretty funny, yeah.
does Z do drugs? She sure acts like it.
how do you know W? Prep.
do you hang out with J and F alot? I used to. Don't really see them much anymore...
who does S like? Lots of stuff I'm too lazy to name at the moment.
our of all your friends, who do you like the best? Do I have to name one? They're all so amazing!

Dreaming's Where I Am...

2007-05-15T22:10:14Z

1. Do you still talk to the person you LAST kissed?
No. But I think I still see her...she just doesn't recognize me, probably. Or I'm just hallucinating...

2. Do you still talk to the person you last texted?
Yep, definitely. See her nearly everyday.

3. Have you ever seen your best friends cry?
Um, just Lucy, methinks. I'm just not there when they cry.

4. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid?
Urgh, those chalky yet good tasting ones...can't...remember...name...

5. What is the last thing you ate?
Popcorn.

6. Did you get any compliments today?
I think.

7. Have you ever gone to court?
No, I don't think I have.

8. Do you have more guy friends or girl?
Girls.

9. When was the last time you napped?
Hmm...yesterday?

10. What languages does your mom speak?
Just English. She used to know French though...

11. Where have you lived throughout your life?
New York - woot!

13. When was the last time you drove more than 15 minutes?
Sunday

14. Do you get distracted easily?
Um, yeah.

16. How many times have you drank alcohol?
Once, maybe? It was purely by accident, I swear.

17. Who's the coolest person ever?
ME.

18. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
Nope.

19. Have you ever toilet papered someones house?
Ha ha, no.

20. Have you ever had a crush on your sisters/brothers friend?
Um, no.

23. Do you remember your music teacher's names from elementary?.
Ugh, no...My mom probably does...

24. How good is your eyesight?
GREAT.

26. Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
Maybe, just to see if they'd like me.

27. What would you say if I told you I was in love with your brother?
Um. Who are you? And how insane are you to be in love with my brother?

28. Have you ever been out of your country?
Yep. Once. Just once.

30. What's the best wedding you've been to?
I can only remember one, but I've been to at least three...

31. Would your parents be mad if you got suspended in High School for fighting?
Oh. Hell. Yeah.

32. Where is your sibling right now?
I don't know...working? Or still in college? WHICH ONE? I HAVE FOUR!

34. What's the last dream you can remember?
Something with Synyster Gates and Zacky Vengeance in it, methinks...

35. Who was the last person that called you?
Katherine

36. What time did you wake up this morning?
8:25

38. What does the 4th text message on your phone SAY?
Do you actually expect me to go to my cell phone and check?

39. Do you drunk dial/text?
Um. No.

40. When was the last time you were really sick and where was it?
A couple of months ago and here. In my house.

42. What's in your back pocket?
Nothing. I personally feel that putting something in your back pocket is like molesting your ass. In other words - uncomfortable.

44. Do you want to be pregnant right now?
NO.

45. Do you wear colored contacts?
No, but if I did, I'd want purple.

46. How do you get to school?
Bus.

47. What were you doing at 2am this morning?
Sleeping.

48. What do you usually do first in the morning?
Go to the bathroom (after shutting off my alarm clock)

49. Do you know anybody in the Army?
I think.

50. What are you going to do after this?
Read fanfiction, probably.

Rolling Balls

2007-05-15T21:59:10Z

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!

How do you feel today?
Your Revolution Is a Joke

What's your outlook on life?
Champagne for My Real Friends, Real Pain for My Sham Friends

What does your family think of you?
Rabbits Are Roadkill On Rt. 37

What do your friends think of you?
Build God, Then We'll Talk

What do strangers think of you?
Love Seat

What do your exes think of you?
Dance Hall Drug

How has your love life been so far?
Finding Home

How will your love life be in the future?
The World's Not Waiting (For Five Tired Boys in a Broken Down Van)

Will you get married?..
The New Patron Saints and Angels

Will you have kids?
Bleed Black

Are you good in school?
The River

Will you be successful in life?
The Wicked End

What song should they play on your birthday?
Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy

What song should they play at your funeral?
Me, You and My Medication

The Soundtrack of Your Life:
Bouncing Off the Walls (^_^)

You and your best friend are:
Holiday

Happy times:
Our Lady of Sorrows

Sad times:
Tell That Mick He Just Made My List of Things To Do Today

Every day:
Thick and Thin

For tomorrow:
Warmness on the Soul

For you:
Sacrifice Theory

What does next year have in store for me?
The End of Nothing (well then...)

Whats my love life like?
Golden

What do I say when life gets hard?
You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us In Prison (^_^)

What do I think when I get up in the morning?
Sweat the Battle Before the Battle Sweats You

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Pain

What do you want as a career?
Halloween (not sure that's a career...)

Your favorite saying?
Second Heartbeat

Favorite place?
Interlude

What do you think of your parents?
Streetcar

Where would you go on a first date?
Honorable Mention

Describe yourself?
Forever

What is the thing I like doing most?
Initiation

The song that best describes my school principal?
On Top of the World (hehe)

What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Cat and Mouse (hmm...)

How will I die?
Rookie of the Year

The song you'll put as the subject?
Rolling Balls

Yeah, I'm not really in the poetic mood. So surveys it is. And hopefully lots of them. ^_^ Get to know me better, hmm?

{Hellions} Day 15 -- Poem 22

2007-04-07T05:40:53Z

Memories that pass in my mind

Memories that die

The painful past that haunts my living soul

The deaths of many that come and go

The ghost of you that plagues my mind

All the people I've left behind

This hellish town of sinners

Will simply tear me down

This hellish town of sinners

Is going to be burned

And I

2007-03-27T04:12:46Z

And I could not write of love, nor of hate or war
No battles had I gone through
And still a naive heart guided my mind
And I could not claim the greatness of others before me
No discoveries had I found
And still blank textbooks guided my mind
Until the day I learned to guide myself
The independence of a soul
Is one they'll never forget.

Boundaries

2007-03-26T06:34:33Z

Tell me again what I shouldn't say

For I have forgotten

Tell me again, so I will remember

To say them the next time I see you

Remind me of what I shouldn't do

For I may have done them

Remind me please, so I will remember

To do that the next time you say not to

Boundaries are constricting

And I don’t want to suffocate

So release me from these wrought iron gates

So I can truly be free

Do not set my limits for me

I can do that myself

Just watch me as I surpass them

That is my true achievement

Tell me again and remind me

For I truly need to know

What I can't do and what I can't say

Because then I know what I will

I will say it, and I'll do it

But not in spite of you

It'll be in spite of boundaries

The ones you set for me and you

Why set boundaries when you can soar?

Soar and keep on aiming higher

Boundaries only hold you back

From achieving what you aspire

Mort D'Amour

2007-03-26T06:27:08Z

In French and in English -- French first. Hope you enjoy! C&C is appreciated!

Je vous ai eu

Je vous ai eu et je l'ai fait

Je sais je l’ai fait

Et ma conscience ne paye aucun prix

Je vous ai tué

Je vous ai tué et je l'ai fait

Je sais je l’ai fait

Et mon meurtre fini votre vie

Je vous ai aimé

Je vous ai aimé et je le faisais encore

Je sais je l’ai fait

Et mon coeur m'indique que j'étais droit

Amant ou non

J'ai vu le monstre vous étiez devenu

Et le démon à l'intérieur de moi

Est né.

-----

I had you

I had you and I did it

I know I did

And my conscience pays no price

I killed you

I killed you and I did it

I know I did

And my murder ended your life

I loved you

I loved you and I still did it

I know I did

And my heart tells me I was right

Lover or not

I saw the monster you had become

And the demon inside of me

Was born.

Hallmark

2007-03-26T06:15:24Z

Ha, I just came up with this and thought ya'll might enjoy it! :D C&C please - very much appreciated!

Hallmark

The simplicity of a Hallmark card
You stare at the sparkle-covered cover
Before you hand it to your mother
And as she gives you a look of disdain
You shrug and say,
"It cost $3.50. You better like it."
Silly you - glad for any excuse not to be creative.
Come up with your own damn witty
pun on your mom's age next time,
you dimwit.

Leave and Go

2007-03-25T02:32:44Z

Leave and Go

Turn around and avert your eyes from mine, when brown meets brown
Honesty was never your forte, my love
And let go of my hand as we spiral down
Hopefully you'll let go of my heart
Holding on to something so long forgotten I'd forgot I was holding on
Releasing my grasp on something too old to renew
And yet, when brown will meet brown once again
We break away, leave and go

Headstrong

2007-03-25T02:25:02Z

Headstrong

Rub your temples and hope the pain eases away
You killed your life, dirty murderer
And now your conscience pays the price

Another life leaves the world and floats away
Choose a road and lead the way
The parade which follows is already dead

Years have passed and your soul has flown away
An empty corpse with blackened eyes stays
Depressing creature of mine, the monster I created

Torn apart by decisions and opportunities thrown away
The final battle is fought and our side has won
But the greed in our hearts has won the war

Raging war in my brain, hope the pain eases away
Mental instability runs through my veins
And it won't end as I bleed forever

New York City {original song}

2007-03-25T01:58:41Z

Decided my first post here was gonna be one of my songs, aka the reason I joined LJ. ^_^ Hope you all like it and stuff. Was inspired by "Skylines and Turnstiles" by My Chemical Romance.

New York City (NYC)

On this bright skyline, I soar so high
The colors fading, people pass by
A simple rhythm, a complex mess
This is simply my worst day yet

Another day of living in this godforsaken place
That I hate, that I hate
But it’s so bittersweet when the lights go out at night
I love it, I love it
Hey New York City, just turn out the lights

Figures creeping in and out of dark alleys
As their shadows play with victims on the wall
Tongue tied poets trying to express their opinion
Screaming it to people who can’t hear at all

Another day of living in this godforsaken place
That I hate, that I hate
But it’s so bittersweet when the lights go out at night
I love it, I love it
Hey New York City, just turn out the lights

But I’ve lived here, just here all my life
Can’t imagine anywhere else to go
Because here with these shadows and freaks
Is where I belong

Another day of living in this godforsaken place
That I hate, that I hate
But it’s so bittersweet when the lights go out at night
I love it, I love it
Hey New York City, just turn out the lights

Turn out the lights…